Hey guys,
Creativity is something so fascinating. It can be influenced by mood, health, social pressure, fear... but there's another thing that can definitely kill any self-confidence you have left, and it's probably something you've all experienced: playing over and over the same loops, mixing the same songs for days, weeks, months, until you somehow get satisfied by the result.
When I started making music, I was easily amazed by my songs, without giving a fuck about the mix.
Then I experimented, discovered things and tried to make good mixes. Satisfaction was still there, but only after some work.
And then finally, I got better at mixing, and reached a point of mixing so much that I started getting obsessed, and to my ears, my songs started to lose their significance and value.
I've been working on a song since june (yes) and I think I've finally finished mixing it today. I'm still unsatisfied by little things but I think it probably sounds decent enough.
When you get into the technical part of making songs (mixing and mastering) you're in another state of mind. You try to make everything sound as good as you can, for hours and hours, and you reach a point where you don't even know if your song is good or not.
The initial emotion and pride you felt when finishing the first melody of your song simply disappears after a few hours of working on it.
But now I think I'm overthinking it and feel that 10 minutes are enough for me to hate the melody I just made. "People don't like this kind of stuff" "it sounds like xxx" "it's too stereotyped" come to mind, and kill all my creativity and will to make new songs. Since a few weeks I noticed that I could't even finish one single song. Not because I couldn't, but because I start to hate my own stuff too soon to keep working on it.
I was planning to release my first single + EP but I'm slowly losing self-confidence and can't bear most of the songs I was planning to release. I have one month until going back to school (I'm 19) and despite this amount of free time, I'm in a total unproductive phase. It really gets me frustrated and in bad mood.
It's been 2 years and a half since I'm making music, and the more I make songs, the faster it takes me to hate what I do. I know I've progressed a lot, I know I've found my genre and style, I know I have capabilities and can make good songs, but working so much on them ruins the innocent and natural approach I used to have: just listening and enjoying the beat, even if it's mine.
I see lots of famous producers actually enjoying their work even when it's done and they don't seem to have such a mental block.
Do you guys have another approach of making / mixing your own music? Maybe another state of mind, or even philosophical approach to creativity and self-confidence? Thanks in advance for your help, I'm just lost right now.
Submitted September 05, 2017 at 09:09PM by FlyInSpace https://www.reddit.com/r/edmproduction/comments/6yc1xo/getting_bored_of_my_own_music_losing/?utm_source=ifttt