Let me explain.
I've always loved music. I self-taught myself piano, therefore I don't know much about music theory. I love to sing but only casually. I figured that when I graduated high school (only last year), that I'd join a choir in college after I was in one for two years in high school.
For context, at my high school, it was very lowkey. Under-budget music program, relied heavily on part recordings up until performances, so on. Here in college, I'm fucking losing it.
At my college (which, if it helps, is a community college), I basically got thrown into the wringer. Everyone is very nice, don't get me wrong, but they're all music majors. HARDCORE music majors. Perfect sight-singers. Can identify key signatures by listening to music. Can figure out how a song goes within seconds. I, on the other hand, am a deer in headlights.
It's tough, because I do LOVE singing, but I clearly don't love it as much as everyone around me. I have little to nothing in common with these people, and I already feel disadvantaged because of my lack of musical knowledge + not even majoring in music (I'm a film major). What takes them seconds to read, takes me WEEKS, and I feel like I'm holding everyone back.
I know that really the only thing I can do at this point is keep practicing, but I feel like it's not enough. I've been practicing nonstop yet I just feel so much discouragement. I get that some of these people in my choral class(es) have studied music for YEARS, so I shouldn't be too hard on myself, but it still sucks.
So: any advice? I feel like a punk coming to Reddit of all places for this stuff, but no one in my social circle is into music, and it's hard for me to express how I'm feeling. Thanks for reading.
Submitted March 22, 2021 at 04:34AM by emily-famlorenzo https://www.reddit.com/r/Learnmusic/comments/mahr4z/im_ruining_my_life_over_a_college_choral_class/?utm_source=ifttt