i initially started as a dj, and i had years of fun with that, until i quit at the end of highschool because i saw no way to create even local gigs for myself. that was a lack of imagination, but the feeling of inevitable failure really took the fun out of it.
then in university i picked up producing, and in four years, i've gone from 0 to something... but the fun hasn't been here since like, one or two years in.
I don't know what happened. I think the socially isolated aspect of producing has really chipped away at me. My hypothesis is that my brain associates producing with failure and isolation. The feelings even creep on listening to music from artists I like. It just reminds me of failure.
I have tried to reverse it by hanging out with a friend and producing at his place... but I think it would take many repetitions to bring the fun into my alone time.
does this sound familiar to you? did you reverse it somehow?
Submitted February 04, 2017 at 12:52AM by Roly__Poly__ https://www.reddit.com/r/edmproduction/comments/5rymgt/somewhere_this_stopped_being_fun/?utm_source=ifttt